What’s been new in your life since January?
The biggest change between January and now is that Nicky graduated high school and left on a mission.
What were you doing in July of last year?
Cooking daily meals for 150 people at girls camp.
What do you dislike about July?
The heat!!!
What kind of energy have you been carrying?
None. Nada. I have no energy currently. The energy hath run out.
What are you most grateful for in your life right now?
Scotty.
What career goals have you accomplished in the last six months?
None. Because I don’t have any.
Review your financial goals from January to July. Are you on track?
Yes!
Have you achieved any goals that you set at the start of the year?
This year I made a list of non-resolutions, and I’m happy to report I’ve quit drinking soda, and we’ve paid off our house. Other accomplishments are under way.
If you could change one thing about the first half of this year, what would it be?
There are a few interactions with Nicky I would like a do-over for.
Have your priorities shifted since the beginning of the year?
Yes, but not in a way that I can explain. I just know that what’s most important in my heart is a little different now than it was six months ago.
What are you holding on to from last year that you haven’t been able to release??
Last year I turned 40, and I lost myself. I didn’t expect it. I thought I was going to turn 40 and thrive, but instead I became an angry, hormonal, mentally unstable stranger. I went to a psychiatrist, and it didn’t help. I got checked for PCOS and perimenopause (no and no). I took meds for ADHD (didn’t help). I don’t know what happened to me. It still lingers, whatever it is, but I’m starting to feel a little more like myself again.
What tasks do you keep postponing?
Mostly things pertaining to health. As per the last question and answer, I feel really discouraged about medical care, so I’m hesitant to address anything pertaining to my health anymore.
What self-care activities have you been doing these past six months?
I hadn’t done a lot of self-care until a few weeks ago when I checked into a hotel by myself for a night and went and got a massage the next morning. It was much needed, and I need to make it an annual thing.
Have you experienced any unexpected blessings in the past six months?
Oh course! But am I supposed to remember what they are?
We’ve had a lot of blessings pertaining to Nicky’s mission. We have some friends and family making contributions toward the monthly cost of the mission. Someone in our ward purchased Nicky’s luggage. Grandparents purchased his temple clothing. We’ve also had a lot of people in the right place at the right time. I can’t even tell you how many times in the past few months there has been a person right where/when I needed them to be.
What’s been occupying your mind and heart the most over the past six months?
Nicky. There have been signs.
Have you made any new connections since January?
Not that I can think of, but I’ve reconnected with a few people I hadn’t seen in a while and got to know some people better.
What have you spent the most time doing in the past six months?
Driving, working, and Marco Polo-ing Shannon and Laurel.
What are your hopes and aspirations for the rest of the year?
I just want to be mentally and financially stable.
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